Guillotines and Subject Lines and Arm-Waving Semantics
Fri, 29 Oct, 1993

>>> First, I don't think of a 3some or 4some as "public scening" <<<

Hi Alex,

I _have_ to think of a threesome or foursome as public scening, because it's the closest I've come to the latter, but I see your point.

When you say that the real "feel" of public scening comes in relatively open, large gatherings where you do not know a large number of the people, do you mean places like public clubs or huge (hundreds of people) parties? I don't have the exhibitionistic streak which you seem blessed with (I've got bad body-image distortion problems, which means that nine times out of 10 I am revolted and disgusted by the way I look out of clothes, and that kind of puts a damper on any budding exhibitionistic streak that may be trying to get out, assuming I even have one to begin with--g) but...I do have something that gets me to the same place: a humiliation streak, and I can certainly imagine how a large anonymous crowd would be one of the best groups to be humiliated in front of. A lot of my fantasies revolve around things like being "Exhibit A" in a large sex education class for high school boys or being made to do a center-ring performance in a dog and pony circus show for slaves.

I wonder though, if in a really big public environment you lose some of the intimate feeling that comes from people you know and who are close friends making embarrassing comments about the way you look and react or touching you intimately while you just have to stand there in font of them in various stages of undress, in various positions and skin colorations and just take it. I know! Maybe I'll take my friends along when Donald and me eventually do a large public scene and instruct them to stand around looking, talking, and touching just the way they did in our living room. Hell, why not? I already take them to burgermunches .

You know, I think I might have the makings in me of a _great_ exhibitionist...as long as I could keep completely covered from head to toe. What's that black garment that some Arab women wear that completely covers them? The name escapes me, but I'd make a great fashion model for that piece .

When my master thinks I'm ready for it, I know we'll be trying bigger public exposure things. He likes to humiliate me (well yeah, and to show off my obedience too--g) even more than I like to be humiliated...which is saying something! In the meantime though, it's real interesting for me to read about the experiences of you and others who have done it a lot. I don't think I'm built for exhibitionism, but as with dominance and sadism (which I also don't seem to be built for) I don't really feel like I'm missing much: I'm having too much fun the way I am.

One other thing about exhibitionists in the D&S scene: while I don't seem to _be_ one, I sure like to watch them. When I am watching a sexy exhibitionistic sub, I like to imagine that I am him or her, and what it would feel like to be having all these people watching me. When I am watching a sexy exhibitionistic dominant, I watch their techinque and rapport with their sub, and also admire the way they seem to be having such a good time. I watched a trio of leathermen last week do a hot wax/hot ash/electricity scene that, while it excited that big fire phobia I have, was still a delight to watch because the participants were so skilled at and intent upon what they were doing. It was beautiful to watch.

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