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Guillotines and Subject Lines and Arm-Waving Semantics
Fri, 29 Oct, 1993
>>> First, I don't think of a 3some or 4some as "public scening" <<<
Hi Alex,
I _have_ to think of a threesome or foursome as public scening, because
it's the closest I've come to the latter, but I see your point.
When you say that the real "feel" of public scening comes in relatively
open, large gatherings where you do not know a large number of the people,
do you mean places like public clubs or huge (hundreds of people) parties?
I don't have the exhibitionistic streak which you seem blessed with (I've
got bad body-image distortion problems, which means that nine times out of
10 I am revolted and disgusted by the way I look out of clothes, and that
kind of puts a damper on any budding exhibitionistic streak that may be
trying to get out, assuming I even have one to begin with--g) but...I do
have something that gets me to the same place: a humiliation streak, and I
can certainly imagine how a large anonymous crowd would be one of the best
groups to be humiliated in front of. A lot of my fantasies revolve around
things like being "Exhibit A" in a large sex education class for high
school boys or being made to do a center-ring performance in a dog and
pony circus show for slaves.
I wonder though, if in a really big public environment you lose some of
the intimate feeling that comes from people you know and who are close
friends making embarrassing comments about the way you look and react or
touching you intimately while you just have to stand there in font of them
in various stages of undress, in various positions and skin colorations
and just take it. I know! Maybe I'll take my friends along when Donald
and me eventually do a large public scene and instruct them to stand around
looking, talking, and touching just the way they did in our living room.
Hell, why not? I already take them to burgermunches .
You know, I think I might have the makings in me of a _great_
exhibitionist...as long as I could keep completely covered from head to
toe. What's that black garment that some Arab women wear that
completely covers them? The name escapes me, but I'd make a great fashion
model for that piece .
When my master thinks I'm ready for it, I know we'll be trying bigger
public exposure things. He likes to humiliate me (well yeah, and to show
off my obedience too--g) even more than I like to be humiliated...which is
saying something! In the meantime though, it's real interesting for me to
read about the experiences of you and others who have done it a lot. I
don't think I'm built for exhibitionism, but as with dominance and sadism
(which I also don't seem to be built for) I don't really feel like I'm
missing much: I'm having too much fun the way I am.
One other thing about exhibitionists in the D&S scene: while I don't seem
to _be_ one, I sure like to watch them. When I am watching a sexy
exhibitionistic sub, I like to imagine that I am him or her, and what it
would feel like to be having all these people watching me. When I am
watching a sexy exhibitionistic dominant, I watch their techinque and
rapport with their sub, and also admire the way they seem to be having
such a good time. I watched a trio of leathermen last week do a hot
wax/hot ash/electricity scene that, while it excited that big fire phobia
I have, was still a delight to watch because the participants were so
skilled at and intent upon what they were doing. It was beautiful to
watch.
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