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Re: D/s and Relationships
Sat, 14 Jan, 1995
Ny says in response to my metaphorical flight of fancy to Sir Sir:
>>> Hmmm. I read your post twice, Rosie, and I still don't see what is
wrong what Sir Sir said. <<<
That's probably because not only is there nothing wrong with what he
said, but I never said there was. What I did say was that his
description of a power exchange is almost an exact opposite of what I
have come to experience and love as D&S power exchange. Then I went on
and on in countless metaphors (which Fred Morris scientifically
deconstructed for me--thank you very much, Fred--g) to describe what my
experience is. By the way, lest this get misconstrued, I don't mind a bit
if folks deconstruct my metaphors or point out their flaws to their
hearts content (and god knows, they contain lots of flaws!). However, it
is rather important to me that people not equate my happy affirmation of
my experience with the act of saying to someone,
"You're wrong." Doing that to what I wrote is
called misrepresentation, and it happens for many reasons, but, in my
experiences, it is usually because someone is reading something
defensively. Sir Sir's description of a power exchange is one
evidently shared by many people, because I've seen the very thing
spoken of many times on ASB. However, I wanted to offer a contrasting,
if minority, experience.
>>> He rules her, but she gave herself willingly to be ruled. <<<
I think someone already responded well to this, but I'll add a couple of
cents. Let's backtrack: the single quote I was responding to in Sir
Sir's message was: "By acting as the dominant I am allowed (note the
operative word here, for it is my submissive that is allowing me to act
dominant)..." He's not talking about "ruling" in this quote, he's talking
about being permitted something, being granted a boon only so long as the
permitter--who has ultimate veto power--allows him to. We have something
very similar to that in our relationship, actually. Donald sometimes
"allows" me to give him orders in very limited circumstances (such as
when I am teaching him some new software trick). I "tell" him to to push
this key or type this command, and often in my bossiest tone of voice,
until he learns what he wants to know (or until he tires of my 'tude--g).
In any case, whenever he wants, he "pulls" the power back, he orders me to
stop instructing, and if I have gotten too full of myself and don't stop,
well, my woo-woo quickly feels the consequences of such hubris . He
can do this because he's the one ultimately in charge, and that's the way
I like it; that's what I've grown to experience and love. Conversely, I
can't do the same to him: I can't "allow" him to be dominant over me,
whether for minutes at a time or decades at a time, always knowing in the
back of my mind that I could suddenly pull the power back and say, unlike
the movie song, "Oh, Donald, yeah, you know I used to have a scene with
him!" (thanks, Dire Straits--g) If I could do that, if I had the ultimate
veto, I would also have all the power and his "rule" of me would be a
puppet rule, a sham. He would be a figurehead of a dominant put in place
by me so I could pretend to be a slave while living my life in utter
safety, knowing I was actually the one holding all the strings. I'm not
commenting on whether this is right or wrong for other people--everyone
has different needs and interests, and for some this sort of situation
might be the ultimate in happiness and fulfillment--but I am saying that
for me, this would be wrong, all wrong, feel bad, false, fake, and
horrible, like my blood had decided (oh here I go again, another
metaphor--but the point of these metaphors is not their scientific
accuracy, of course, but to convey a sense how strongly and
viscerally I feel this) to run backwards and my veins had suddenly
decided to do my arteries' work and vice-versa.
>>> But didn't the earth put herself there? In any way? Or at least go
willingly when pulled into orbit?... <<<
A resounding yes to all of these questions! Absolutely! (at least in my
experience).
>>>...How could the earth be orbiting with any consensuality and not be
allowing what is going on to go on? <<<<
I'm not sure I understand this completely, but hey, that's never stopped
me from answering a question yet! My answer to this is that, in my
personal experience (but not my astrophysical experience--g), once
you're sucked into orbit around a body more powerful than yourself,
you're stuck. Yes, you were initially attracted to the object and you
willingly drew close, but once your proximity reaches a certain critical
point, there's no pulling away. The gravity of the more powerful object
has you in its grasp.
This is fun. I think I'll expand on the metaphor a little more. But don't
forget, we're really talking about people here (and I'm really talking
about what I've really experienced), so this metaphor (like all the other
metaphors I use) is not meant to be an exact
one. It's just meant to illustrate or illuminate or strike a chord or
provide a whiff of something that's very difficult to talk about.
Say the Earth were sentient and started out its life as a stray asteroid
or a rogue planet, a proudly independent ragtag wanderer of the
universe, its little felt three-cornered traveller's cap set juantily
on one pole, and then suddenly! Kabang! It is so attracted to the Sun
it is passing that it moves close enough to be drawn into orbit around
it, just as you suggest. Now pretend that gravitational force is something
that is a rich mixture of both love and power. The Earth, held firmly in
orbit by the gravitational force of the Sun, begins to rotate, develops
an atmosphere and all sorts of other wonderful qualites within the warm,
radiant embrace of its lord and master. Now, my personal experience is
that once one begins to orbit around a very strong object, an object with
a gravitational force orders of magnitude stronger than your own, you may
find it difficult or impossible to leave orbit of your own volition, no
matter how much you may sometimes want it. In addition, the act of
orbiting, which can be compared to active submission, itself influences
and stablizes the once-rogue planet, making it even less likely to become
a stray ever again.
Yes, my active desire and will brought me to the doorstep (whoops, I mean
gravitational well!) of my master, but once there, his active desire and
will (along with my cooperation--although it always played a minor role
and was, from very early on, totally controlled by him) kept me there. If
you have never met a person who acted upon you as the Sun acts upon the
planets it keeps within its gravitational sphere, you may not completely
accept or believe that this could be an illustration of a human
relationship, no matter how badly you wish it were so. Certainly, before
I met Donald, I would not have believed it possible that a person as
powerful as hem could exist--a person who could control me even during
the times when I actively didn't want to be controlled. But such people do
exist. I've met one. And this is my experience.
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